Monday, April 12, 2010
1 timothy 1 (just love)
hello! i so hope this works.
also, just a note, i am reading from the message version. so yeah.. it might be a tad different!
and i don't really know how i want to do this quite yet, so for tonight, i am going to comment while reading the passage. kcool.
in the first verse, i already love that paul calls christ "our living hope". i really, really like that name.
in vs. 3 and 4, paul talks about how people have made up stories and bring unrelated things into Christianity ("digress into silliness") instead of being just fully devoted to Christ. It's amazing how even hundreds of years ago, people were still caught up in the rules and regulations and worldly things. and yeah, it's sad, but in a way, it's sort of comforting to know that you're not alone. it's like this blog. we need people around us to keep us accountable for not getting caught up in dumb things that will just bring us down. i love how the message puts this, "instead of pulling the people back into the center, deepening faith and obedience."
dang-a-rang. i just keep reading over and over vs. 5. i love reading verses i already know in the message. it's like a new way to think about it. "the whole point of what we're urging is simply love- love uncontaminated by self-interest and counterfeit faith, a life open to God." wanna know something funny? one of the first things that came to mind when i read this was john mayer's speech in the middle of the song bold as love on his where the light is cd. he's just talking about how he feels like he's tried everything. but the one thing he hasn't truly tried is to just love. just truly love what's going on with everything he has. and i know john mayer probably wasn't talking about God in that instance, but he's so right. everything about every single thing we know will come down to just love with your entire heart.
another side note, vs. 7. "but haven't the remotest idea of what they're holding forth with such imposing eloquence." it just reminds me that a good relationship with God has nothing to do with how you can speak and sound like you know what you're talking about. it's about how you feel and how you believe it.
vs. 8-11. the bible was written for the sinful. period.
"He went out on a limb, you know, in trusting em with this ministry." We were just talking about this at lead tonight. It's scary and sort of heartbreaking to know that God doesn't need us. He really doesn't. But He chooses to use us, chooses to let us minister to others. And there's so many times that i get scared to talk to people about my faith or whatever, but He choose us to do it. He knows what we're gonna do, whether fail or embed something in someone's heart. And He still chose us. I need to learn to look at it as a privilege, not a scary moment. Also, i just reread the verse above it and it says that paul is grateful for making him adequate to do ministry. i've also never thought about it like that. God is awesome. and that is the end of this bullet point.
so i'm paraphrasing here, but i just think this is so cool. Jesus came to save sinners. we're proof, people who would never be anywhere without the love and sheer mercy of Christ. and now He shows me off (like in ministry). how crazy is that? a way God shows us off is by allowing us to minister to nonbelievers. i think that should be our life goal. have talked to so many people about Christ that it's like God is showing us off. :]
so, i have finished my first blog and i just want to say that i am so, so, so happy we are doing this. i love you guys so much. and i can not wait for tomorrow.
with love from your sister,